Baby #2


[Trigger warning: pregnancy loss]


Monday 12/16


I had a hard day today. Especially this morning.


I started bleeding a week ago. It’s just about stopped now. My husband went back to work today so everything seemed back to “normal”—except that I wasn’t pregnant anymore.


I just missed my baby. I missed spending the day with my 17-month-old and my belly baby… I already felt like a mom to both of them—talking to both of them, moving through the day with both of them, navigating both tantrums and symptoms—already a mom of two… But today I was officially back to being a stay-at-home mom of one.


Thank God she is the cutest, sweetest, funniest, best girl in the world. Her and her dad are why I wasn’t a ball of tears in bed today.


Thursday 12/11


Grateful for the fudge our neighbors made us (they didn’t know, just coincidental).


Grateful for the Insomnia Cookies our friends sent us.


Grateful for the five days of bereavement my husband’s work allows for pregnancy loss, so we can be together.


Grateful for our moms coming to watch our daughter. Grateful for the breakfast my mom made me, and the dinner my MIL made us.


Grateful for our adorable daughter who makes us smile and laugh.


Grateful for the other women online and in my life who are helping me feel less alone 💗🕯️


8 weeks + 2 days


Tuesday 12/10


This is the oldest baby #2 will ever be. I started bleeding on Monday, and doctors confirmed yesterday that I was having a miscarriage.


We are grieving and crying and resting and holding each other and our daughter tight today.


We didn’t know whether the baby was a boy or girl, but we are calling baby #2 Magdalena.


“Everything lost will be recovered / As we drift into the arms of the undiscovered.”


7 week + 4 days symptoms



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